i've been feeling a little down the last little while. actually it comes in swings - i feel completely satisfied with life and the changes going on around me and then seemingly out of nowhere i snap and feel unimportant again. it seems i'm watching all my friends grow up and move on with their lives, while i'm just the same. i've been feeling forgotten and tossed aside as i see their lives go on to new stages. while i feel stagnant. i don't want my relationships to change, yet they have to. as i see their lives changing, i realize that i too have to change. i have to re-arrange my plans. and you know what? that scares me.